I have been waiting for a visit from you for sometime now because it doesn't feel right that your gone. I was hopeing god made a mistake and somehow he would clear it up and bring you back, but soon your 14 th birthday will be here without you. I used to hope that god was really going to come back and bring our family back together, but that fades by the day. Maybe this is it, one life to live and love to the fullest. When I look back I just hope I gave my all. I will never forget what you gave me in the hospital that night, in all your pain and the condition you were in you still manage to muster up a smile, that is the last happy memory you gave me.I was sure that you were going to have the strength to fight your way out of this one. I wish I would have just stayed by your side that night because it was the last time I would see you smile forever. Everyone says you are in a better place now, but if that were the truth then why would you be put here on earth in the first place if this is not a good place to be, after all isn't life precious to god. If heaven is real, I hope you are there and aware that we miss you. Life hasen't made much sense to me since you have been gone, and I suppose it never will, because there once was a boy named Austin who gave me hope, and strangely enough gave me strength to carry on, If he could fight so could I. You did a good battle Son and I will always admire your will and ability to alway's come out with a smile. When I die I will say your name one last time. Until then I miss and love you without end.