Dear Austin we miss you .We wish you were here right now.I would hug and kiss you.I hope your playing and running around.I bet your playing basketball right now. say hi to uncle Cris for me.Im bored with out you.I wish you could tell me what god looks like.I love you with all my heart...

I REMEMBER THAT IT WAS 2 YEARS AGO TOMORROW (01/10/2007) THAT YOU SHOWED MORE COURAGE AND LOVE THAN ANY HUMAN HAS EVER SHARED.  YOU BLESSED DADDY AND I WITH YOUR BEAUTIFUL SMILE AFTER A  MONTH AND A HALF IN THE HOSPITAL GOING THROUGH COMPLETE AGONY ALL FOR US TO KEEP YOU HERE ON EARTH WITH US.  IT WAS OUR ANNIVERSARY AND WE WERE SO DOWN AND OUT AND HURTING BECAUSE WE JUST FELT HOPELESS BECAUSE AFTER ALL YOU HAD BEEN THROUGH YOU HADN'T SHOWN US A SMILE.  IN ALL YOUR YEARS HERE WITH US WE ALWAYS KNEW THAT EVERYTHING WOULD BE OK IF YOU WOULD JUST SMILE.  BECAUSE NO MATTER HOW BAD THINGS ARE OR WERE YOU WOULD STILL MANAGE TO SMILE THROUGH IT ALL.  BUT THIS TIME YOU HADN'T IN 1 1/2 MONTHS.  BUT THAT ALL CHANGED ON 01/10/2005.   IT WAS 7:02 PM AND YOU WERE LAYING IN YOUR HOSPITAL BED AND DADDY AND I HAD JUST CAME BACK FROM DINNER.. IT WAS OUR 8TH ANNIVERSARY...  WHEN IT HAPPENED.  THROUGH ALL THE PAIN AND SUFFERING THERE IT WAS ..  THAT AMAZING SMILE...  WE KNOW THAT WAS YOUR GIFT TO US AND IT WAS THE BEST PRESENT WE HAD EVER RECEIVED.  YOU WOULD HAVE THOUGHT YOU HAD NEVER SMILED BEFORE IN YOUR LIFE THE WAY WE FUSSED OVER YOU AND LIKE LITTLE KIDS WE KEPT DOING SILLY THINGS OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN JUST TO SEE YOU SMILE.  AS MUCH AS WE FELT LIKE YOU NEEDED TO SMILE TO MAKE EVERYTHING WORTH IT I NOW KNOW THAT IT WAS OBVIOUS THAT WE WERE THE ONES WHO TRULY NEEDED THAT SMILE.   YOU HAVE ALWAYS ENCOURAGED US THROUGH THE WAY YOU FACED EVERYTHING IN YOUR LIFE NOT AS AN OBSTACLE BUT AS A CHALLENGE THAT YOU STRIVED TO TAKE ON AND CONQUER.  WHEN I THINK OF YOU AND MOST WILL AGREE...  WE SEE YOUR SMILE AND THAT WAS WHAT CARRIED US THEN AND IT WILL CARRY ME EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE HERE ON EARTH UNTIL I CAN SEE IT AGAIN IN HEAVEN ON YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACE.  SENDING ALL MY KISSEM AND KISSEM AND KISSEMS THAT A MOTHER CAN GIVE TO THE LOVE OF MY LIFE TODAY TOMORROW AND FOR ALWAYS.  THANK YOU FOR ALL THE MEMORIES I JUST WANTED TO SHARE THIS ONE BECAUSE AS ALWAYS IT SHOWS YOUR SELFLESSNESS.  I LOVE YOU TUPAMOPAMOOPAH...  LOVING YOU ALWAYS MOMMY 

P.S THAT WAS THE LONGEST MONTH AND A HALF I EVER WAITED TO SEE THAT GORGEOUS SMILE.  I THOUGHT IT WOULD NEVER COME. 

Austin,

Some people take such littlle things for granted..

The ability to Walk.. Talk...Eat..

To be able to let all your frustrations out when your angry, hurt or scared...

For a young boy that seemed to have all the disadvatages in life.. I've never seen such a SMILE!!!...

Thank you! Austin for that smile...

At a time in my life when I felt the most alone, that smile helped me more than you know...

 Just  across the gravel road to your house. I would walk in and tell your mom "I need to talk to Austin!!!"...

I would walk down the hall to your room open the door, and if you were'nt sleeping I crawled into your bed with like a big baby, and told you all that was hindering me. EvenThough you could'nt speak to console me, I would just look into those "Big Beautiful!!!"brown eyes gazing back at me. And the occasional brush of your hand across my face seemed to be all enough....

(Sometimes you gave me quite the woop'in though kid in the process!!..LOL..!!!)

Walking away with minor hair loss and a fat lip, I thought to myself("what a grip!") HA! HA!.

Maybe you were just telling me in your own way "QUIT BEING A WUSSY!!". Never the less I still felt like a big weight had been lifted off my shoulders..Thank you!!

    They say we have "Angels" here on this earth to help us...

And I believe this to be true..But I never thought I would see one in the flesh.. Until I met you!........

     You will forever have a special place in my heart!...

I also want to give Your Mommy and Daddy a special "Thank you!". Thank you so much!!!!!!! you guy's for being there for me. You always were... I love You!!! I don't know were I would be....

              Lastly,Thank you both for creating a ''Beautiful Angel'' for all of us to see.........

                         Love You,

                              Moni.....

well sweety .. here it is almost 2007 ..it's amost impossible for me to imagine that it has been nearly 2 years since i saw your sweet face .. me & the girls went walking the other day .. so strange to be this warm in winter.. anyway we walked out to grandpa coggins & terry's uncle chris Graves ..all the way there i thought of you & how we used to walk there together with the twins helping push you on either side of you .& the little butterfly swirling all around you & then landing on your hand , how you loved that & something i will never forget .so much has happened , so many changes .. one thing never changes though darlin .. & that 's that i love you & miss you just as much today as ever ..i'll always feel a hole in my heart without you ..and can't wait to hold you & kiss you again ..love you Angel,Granny!

Buddy There are so many memories ,i will be back here many times i am sure , but right now i am just sitting here remembering out last christmas eve ..even though it was spent alone in a hospital room , i am & will forever be grateful for that night ...the snowflakes falling outside in the late late night while you slept , ..but i still got to be there ..hold your hand , kiss you ..tell you i love you ..& your brown eyes are burned into my memory,,Christmas will never be the same

Sunshine ..nigh night darlin

Sure do miss that smile and taking you out for rides on the motorcycles

God Bless